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I'm moving.
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I'm now mostly posting my stuff only on tumblr. I don't really know why. dA is more suited to providing a good way to get criticism, but I don't really get much feedback so I guess I figured to try elsewhere.
It's not on villithorricochets though, it's notsoincidental. In case you were wondering.
It's not on villithorricochets though, it's notsoincidental. In case you were wondering.
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An honest effort.
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I am not a writer unless I'm writing, so I'm going to make an honest effort to write more. I'm not sure how well this will go, but I might as well state my intent.
I just need to get over the fact that what I write won't be perfect right away. It seems like it should be obvious and okay, but it bugs me. At least I know what most of the problem is.
Woot.
I just need to get over the fact that what I write won't be perfect right away. It seems like it should be obvious and okay, but it bugs me. At least I know what most of the problem is.
Woot.
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Stuff?
2 min read
A lot of "stuff" has been happening and stuff.
A few things about myself have been realized. Like.
I'm a bit of a coward. Just a bit. =\
I want to say it back, but, should I really when I feel this way?
I know I feel it, or at least have the potential to, but am I really ready?
I feel like I'm making it out to be more than it really is, but it is definitely more than what some other people make it out to be. I take my responsibilities seriously, and love is a responsibility. A huge giant scary responsibility that I want but at the same time...what if I let everyone down? What if I let myself down? What if I can't take it?
That's a lot of what-ifs, but I feel like they're all pretty valid.
Oh dear. I just reread the first line and realized I said "and stuff" at the end. That can't be good.
Oh well.
Why am I so scared? It doesn't seem reasonable for me to have this many trust issues. I know they're all unfounded in this situation, but they're here anyway. I don't even know why I have them? I mean, there are a few instances in my past that I suppose I can bring up to excuse it, but ionno. Doesn't really seem like something to just randomly excuse.
It's also pretty unfair of me to want an assurance that nothing is going to break before I commit myself. Don't get me wrong, I have no illusions of this lasting forever, happy marital bliss, blahblahblah: I just don't want it breaking. I recognize that things will likely dissolve. I'm even okay with that to a certain point. But the idea of things shattering, irreparable relationships-- it freaks me out.
I just want everything to be okay. =\
I wrote a haiku and a usual ed-style poem, but I'm not sure if I want to upload them or just show them...
-shrug-
A few things about myself have been realized. Like.
I'm a bit of a coward. Just a bit. =\
I want to say it back, but, should I really when I feel this way?
I know I feel it, or at least have the potential to, but am I really ready?
I feel like I'm making it out to be more than it really is, but it is definitely more than what some other people make it out to be. I take my responsibilities seriously, and love is a responsibility. A huge giant scary responsibility that I want but at the same time...what if I let everyone down? What if I let myself down? What if I can't take it?
That's a lot of what-ifs, but I feel like they're all pretty valid.
Oh dear. I just reread the first line and realized I said "and stuff" at the end. That can't be good.
Oh well.
Why am I so scared? It doesn't seem reasonable for me to have this many trust issues. I know they're all unfounded in this situation, but they're here anyway. I don't even know why I have them? I mean, there are a few instances in my past that I suppose I can bring up to excuse it, but ionno. Doesn't really seem like something to just randomly excuse.
It's also pretty unfair of me to want an assurance that nothing is going to break before I commit myself. Don't get me wrong, I have no illusions of this lasting forever, happy marital bliss, blahblahblah: I just don't want it breaking. I recognize that things will likely dissolve. I'm even okay with that to a certain point. But the idea of things shattering, irreparable relationships-- it freaks me out.
I just want everything to be okay. =\
I wrote a haiku and a usual ed-style poem, but I'm not sure if I want to upload them or just show them...
-shrug-
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A blip.
1 min read
Deleting "Senses" because of reasons.
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